- egg (72kcal)
- pancake (~200kcal)
net: 327kcal
weight: 114lbs / 52kg
bmi: 17.9
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my dad made breakfast this morning and woke me up to eat. i didn't really have a choice or good excuse so i just complied... idk about the calories i logged i feel like they're really off. it was probably like 600 total or something because it was a bigass pancake (i left a fourth of it). either way i'm deciding to omad it because i already feel fat from yesterday. i weighed myself a few hours later and still 114... yay. at least i didn't gain from how much i ate yesterday which tbh was more of just a normal day instead of a binge but it doesn't matter because it made me feel completely invalid.. at least all my cravings are gone.
personal log after a few days. i have a feeling two of my friends shit talk me behind my back and have been doing so for a while now... like 3+ years. i've grown distant from both now and when i felt it start i was making an effort to talk to them more and salvage the friendship but... :/ oh well. i'll call them deadweight and move on. one of them has always been kinda.. but i was really close with the other and we shared so many interests and have so many memories together, it blows but i'm gonna stop thinking about it now or else i'll feel sad and i don't really want to deal with feelings right now. i have my best friends at least..! the thing is they're both guys and there's nothing wrong with guy friends, we're really close and i love them more than anything but girl friendships are so important to me and i don't know why i keep losing them. i'm so jealous of people who have childhood friends or 10+ year friendships. i hope i find my circle in uni..
end of day now and i did it woooo. didn't eat a thing since breakfast. i binge watched a bunch of those korean diet vlogs where they drop like 5 kilos in a week and i got so much mealspo from them. will probably try one of them out tomorrow. going to sleep now.. night blog ♥