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| i want my legs to look like this but there's no way my parents won't send me back to ip :/ i'll figure it out.. they aren't gonna stop me lol |
intake: 482kcal
- mango green tea boba (130kcal)
- shrimp soup (171kcal)
- tuna salad (181kcal)
net: 482kcal
weight: 109.6lbs / 49.7kg
bmi: 17.2
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look how low cal those meals are!!!! instead of depraving myself when i'm hungry and risking binging, i've decided to start making the low cal meals i have saved. i've also been wanting to focus a little more on protein instead of the junkorexic shit i've been doing, hence the fish. i was worried about how the shrimp soup would turn out but i threw in some spices and it tasted amazing. the tuna salad was even better! i'm proud of myself!!! i'm a chef!!!!!!!! it's a bit tedious though because i'm very nitpicky about not underestimating calories. i measured and weighed everything multiple times. it took me around an hour to make each, even though they were like 10 minute meals.
i dropped my mom off at the airport and said goodbye :'( it's only two weeks and i'm going to miss her a lot.. but i'm happier she's able to go see her mom and sisters and spend eid with them. in the meantime i have to babysit because my dad is working and my oldest younger sister (is there a better phrase for that lol???) is kind of useless... i did well today though. i cleaned the kitchen, loaded the dishwasher and made my younger siblings dinner. luckily whenever i do these things my brain likes to focus on the amount of cals i'll burn from moving around, thank you brain for allowing me to be productive.
anyways i'm thinking about how much i'll lose by the time my mom gets back? it's been almost 2 weeks and i've dropped ~11lbs / 5kg. if i drop that same amount i'll literally be at my goal weight... tbh my dad might notice but i doubt he'll say anything. i'm a little worried about bmi 16 because that's the point where i lose most of my extra face fat and it looks noticeably slimmer. my mom will definitely notice when that happens but i'll just try to excuse it with being so focused on babysitting? we'll see i guess. nighttt blog ♥