intake: 610kcal
- mango joyba (130kcal)
- melona bar (130kcal)
- a-sha noodles (350kcal) *i actually threw out the packaging and couldn't find the exact one i ate so i just logged the highest cal noodle the brand sells. :/ better safe than sorry!
net: 610kcal
exercise/steps: didn't log
weight: 120lbs / 54kg
bmi: 18.8
weight: 120lbs / 54kg
bmi: 18.8
notes: starting off very junkorexic lol ramen ice cream and boba... o well as long as i'm restricting :] i wasn't originally going to eat the noodles but my mom asked me what i wanted for dinner and it was either eat home food that i'm unable to accurately log or something packaged with the calories on it.. so i opted for the noodles
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today is the day i officially relapsed. if i'm being honest i mentally relapsed weeks ago, but today i woke up and decided i miss waking up to my stomach caved in and my ribs being visible and my thigh being the same width as my phone screen. my stomach hurts but i feel kind of euphoric. whenever i'm starving i like to tell myself it's my body eating away at the fat and it motivates me. my mom is being super pushy with me eating food but luckily, i'm sick so i've been passing meals under that excuse. if she forces me i'll just not finish or trash it when she isn't looking..
now onto my personal life... i've been so stressed for uni. i think i can manage but i don't know.. i'm a very difficult person and i don't like having many friends. the ones i have know me well enough to only ask me to hang out once a week or so. i also hate texting people. i'm more anxious about the fact i have to make friends than the actual friend making process.. but that's not really why i'm so stressed, i'll figure out how to cross that bridge when i get to it. to be honest i have no idea why i'm feeling so down, i think it's just my anxiety so i've been trying to see the bright side of things.
i think that's all for today.. there's some other things i wanna mention but i'll get to them when the time comes.