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| this is riize's sohee.. he's my fav person on earth literally the only male i feel attracted to lol. he's just endearing to me.. but recently he's lost so much weight. i saw this yesterday and it triggered me so horribly but i also hope he's okay :( praying he can eat well when promos are over |
- egg wrap (248kcal)
- in n out (850kcal) :/
net: 914kcal
exercise: 184kcal
weight: 105.6lbs / 47.9kg
bmi: 16.5
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yayayayay i lost more than a pound since yesterday!!!! i had another egg wrap for breakfast, played sims, then went on an hour long walk. it's still really freaking hot but it was cloudy today so it was bearable. i wish walking at night was safer because it's always breezy and perfect for walks but oh well. my dad came home from his trip and took us to in n out for dinner and ugh at least they have a calorie menu... i purged some of it when i got home and i'm telling myself i didn't go over my tdee so i don't freak out but i'm kind of disappointed and i feel fat and gross.. i hate eating there's never a time where i don't feel guilty doing it. especially lately. my egg wrap was just under 300 cals and the only thing i ate in the morning and i still felt guilty for eating it... i wish i was capable of fasting but i literally pass out if i don't eat for over a day and it doesn't help i'm also anemic.
my sister has been so annoying lately. she keeps making eating disorder jokes at me and ridiculing me... when i was making my egg wrap she asked why i was a health nut all of a sudden and to just eat a donut or something for breakfast... like no? and disordered or not, there's nothing wrong with opting for a healthier option.. she's so weird. when we were at in n out i was looking at the calorie menu and she glances over at my phone and says 'no way, are you looking up the calories?' i was so embarrassed and mad at her. who cares if i am??? leave me alone. i told her i was looking at the menu to decide what i wanted because my dad doesn't like to waste time. she's also just so painfully unfunny and weird.. she's started hanging out with this weird girl who i don't like at all so she's all changed now. it sucks because we used to be close, but i don't like hanging out with her anymore because all she does is make insensitive jokes or call me an anorexic.. i don't need her anyways, within my family i'm closer with my parents and when my mom comes back i'll have her company again. sorry for the longish irrelevant vent... i needed to get it out. i'm going to finish my sims house now :) goodnight blog ♥