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| realizing i won't have the knob knees i dream of unless i hit bmi 13s and by then there's no way i won't have a lung collapse or some shit like that.. bmi 14 pls have my back |
- spicy tuna rolls (350kcal)
- strawberry lemonade sparkling water (5kcal)
- chicken salad (298kcal)
net: 372kcal
exercise: 281kcal
weight: 107.8lbs / 48.9kg
bmi: 16.9
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today was sooo shitty i don't even wanna talk about it. it was fine at first, i actually woke up pretty early and i decided to go on a morning walk and grab breakfast instead of making something so i bought sushi which was worth it since it's been a craving i've been itching to kill and then the sparkling water bc the brand tastes really good and i figured it was big enough to last me the day in case i felt like binging later (which i'm sooo glad i did because that damn cheesecake was taunting me..) i think i might try c/s it tomorrow to see if it's worth the hype.. it can't possibly be worse than purging. ummm i think i played roblox after that then i made myself the salad but this time with strawberries, bell peppers and shredded carrots. it was really good. it's less cals because i didn't use dressing.. that shit is like 100 cals for a tablespoon like gtfo i really need to find low cal dressing or like a yogurt i can use.
i went on another walk after i ate my salad because my morning walk was only 45min and i'd probably kill myself if i didn't hit my 60 minutes. the second was around 50 min so 95 total!!! that's pretty good i'm proud of myself. i think i just need to shower and that's why i'm so down idk.
also am i logging my exercises right..? i hate overestimating but i linked an app to my fitness thing and it said i burnt like 500 something which seems crazy for 90 minutes of walking... i log the active and not total calories because idk i feel like total cals don't count since that's what my body burns anyways like at that point i might as well subtract my entire bmr... i'm going to sleep and don't have much hope for losing by tomorrow since i drank the sparkling water and it's def gonna bloat me. aaaghghh patience is virtue i guess.
this disorder is so funny if you think about it because i could be eating well and calling up my friends to go out but i just spend all my time meal planning, cooking and walking. but also it gives me a purpose almost? i had miserable days when i was eating 'normally' but now instead of JUST being miserable i can be skinny and miserable... it balances out. goodnight blog x