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| my arms have always been kinda thin so maybe i can do this but i need to know fs |
intake: 630kcal
- apple kale smoothie (102kcal)
- filly cheesesteak (518kcal)
- low cal snapple (10kcal)
net: 382kcal
exercise: 248kcal
weight: 109lbs / 49.4kg
bmi: 17.1
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praise the lord even if i only lost .1 pound. better than GAINING. i woke up at like 109.7 and i was really about to kill myself so thank god for that morning shit. i made this kale apple smoothie i saw from a korean diet vlogger and it was really good for only 100cals. i watched a stephanie soo video with it. my dad made filly cheesesteaks and i was sitting in the kitchen bar so i was very lowkey noting down everything he used and estimated the total cals... then i found a recipe already saved onto myfitnesspal with a super close number so i just picked that. after that i felt fat obviously :/ eating real food makes me feel so invalid i miss my junkorexic era, i was off a high or something.. so i went on another hour long walk. i think i'll just make this a daily thing or 4/5 days a wk bc i hate working out and running is stupid and exhausting to me... plus i get fresh air and idk i just feel great afterwards.
omg also i wasn't planning on purging today but when i got home i felt like i needed to throw up as i was about to shower so i went to the bathroom and it literally just came up on it's own i was ?!?!? and so smoothly too, i just puked it all out. idk if that's healthier because i didn't have to use my fingers and my face didn't redden as badly, or worse because i just involuntarily purged..... but i don't really care since it's getting me closer to the point i wanna be at. i forgot to mention i've been on my period the past fewish days too which i think is whats slowing my wl, idk how i haven't brought that u[ lol.. but it's felt like forever now and i literally had it just the week before. i need my cycle to either regulate or GO AWAYYYY i'm sick.