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| i miss when i was home alone and didn't have to worry about my parents cooking for me and ruining my day.. |
- potato beef casserole (~394kcal) :/
- mango melona (110kcal)
- chips (160kcal)
- cheesecake (39kcal) (c/sed...)
net: 750kcal
exercise: 203kcal
weight: 106.3lbs / 48.2kg
bmi: 16.6
note: i purged almost all of the casserole.. literally not even 5 min after eating it. and i tried c/s for the first time because my binge urges were so strong today.. :/
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i'm going to kill somebody i was mad af when i woke up and weighed more this morning... today was okay. i woke up soo late and my dad was making lunch but then we were out of cheese and he said he was gonna just finish it tomorrow so i made myself breakfast ( the egg wrap ) but then he goes shopping and decides to finish it TODAY and he made us sit and eat at the dinner table like... as soon as i finished i went up to purge it. i don't know if this means i purged a lot of it but i weighed myself after eating (107.3 or something) then after purging and using the bathroom and i was back down at 106.3.. i went for my walk after and bought my cat some treats but when i got back whew it was bad. it's my day to clean the kitchen and i was so dizzy and weak because i purged, so i told myself i'd eat the melona.. after i finished i was sitting at the kitchen bar with my sister which was stupid tbh i should've just gone up to sleep because that's the only reason why i "binged." she had chips and i asked if they were good and she gave me them to try and i finished the bag.. it was a small bag and she left about 1/3 but still :( i just logged it as half because i didn't wanna risk underestimating. i really shouldn't have given in because after i eat one thing i feel like falling apart. i was about to get another bag of chips but they were all like 200cals per bag like that is so much and not worth it at all. then i saw the cheesecake and started thinking back to when i said i'd try c/sing and... i did it. it was kinda difficult because cheesecake is so sticky and melts in your mouth kinda, it would get stuck in the back and i'd have to like gag it forward or drink water to spit it out. i drank water between every bite to wash my mouth and make sure i wasn't consuming anything but obviously it's impossible to do that so i logged it as 10% of the total cals of a slice. the slice i ate was also a bit small so.. idk. i hope i lose tomorrow. i'm going to stop making breakfast because today was a disaster for the sole reason i did. my intake would've been around 700 which is a million times better than 900... which is so close to 1k ugh i feel so fat and gross. UGHHHH goodnight blog