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| hey future self u can't wear skirts and look like this if you keep acting like a fat fucking cow omg i'm going to be huge i can't do this |
- french donut (190kcal)
- macaroni (310kcal)
- chips w/ dip (336kcal)
- cherries (90kcal)
- taquitos (230kcal)
net: 1,194kcal
exercise: 222kcal
weight: 106.3lbs / 48.2kg
bmi: 16.6
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i'm so sick omg i'm going to gain tomorrow omg my friend dragged me up to a lake (not really..... i love nature and it was fun but FUCK i ate like a pig). we stopped at king soopers to get food and she just kept buying and buying........ i told her i wouldn't eat something and she'd buy it anyways.. when we got there she offered me the chicken and how am i supposed to say no omg i want to die i'm so stupid JUST SAY YOU'RE NOT HUNGRY?? in the store i was speed typing all the brand names into my phone while she was looking around so i wouldn't look sus checking them in front of her later.. but 1,416 is crazy i want to cry why would i let myself eat that much. i tried dragging her up to walk around and stuff but she just wanted to kayak and SIT LIKE COME ONNNNN. she brought a soccer ball and we played for 30ish minutes and i was playing like a try hard trying to burn off cals.. i was exhausted when i got home but i still got up to go for a walk (the weather was AMAZING so breezy and chill..). i was twice as exhausted after but i think i would've killed myself if i didn't. my apple watch is telling me i burnt 500 calories today but i don't believe it.. plus that's like 100 more than usual anyways like okay thanks i'm still going to kill myself. ALSO I GAINED SINCE YESTERDAY. i THINK it's water weight BUT STILLLLLL I WANT TO DIE I'M SO FUCKING FAT AND STUPID.
i have to lock in tomorrow. my dad has work so i'm gonna pray he just leaves me alone so i can starve in peace. i'm going to make myself a tuna salad or something for dinner/lunch and not eat the rest of the day... pLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. if i'm in the 107s tomorrow i'm jumping out my window i'm not even kidding. please. PLEASE. goodnight blog :(