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intake: 420kcal
- lemon raspberry muffin (420kcal)net: ???
exercise/steps: 3k? kcal
weight: 127lbs / 51kg
bmi: 18.1
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it's been so long. i basically reversed in my progress and gained back more. i don't know how much i weigh because i've been so afraid to. i've been so depressed and i feel like my life is falling part. i'm going to start updating more casually without the structured format so i can stay consistent i guess. the last time i weighed i was fucking 127lbs.. i stared at it for a long time and broke down crying then drank myself to sleep. i'm so drained and it's been so hard to restrict with school. i'm so fucking stupid i genuinely deserve to die. even today i woke up and had a fucking 400 calorie muffin i don't understand what my issue is. as i'm writing this it's 11am. i have a class around 2 and i just won't eat until then. it's easy. i need to be skinny. i need to hit 95lbs and then 90 and then 85. and i will. i'm publishing this now and i'll just update it later. goodbye for now my blog. thank you for sticking with me